2018 was a hard year for me. I honestly didn’t expect it to go the way it did. Instead of letting every thing that happened get me down, I decided to change my mindset. I recently asked God, what are you trying to teach me? What have I learned from all of this?
The first lesson I learned was to not let a guy help me financially if I am not married to him. This is probably one of the biggest regrets of my life. The basic premise of what happened is I let my boyfriend of four years help me buy a car when my old car bit the dust. Well, the relationship that I thought was going to last forever is over. I have the car but I can’t cut all ties with my ex until the car is paid off in three years. It’s a big regret. Lesson learned.
The second lesson I learned is to make sure I am following God’s will and not my own. I followed my own will for the last four years and I am now crawling back to God and begging for his forgiveness. I’m suffering the consequences of my actions and it hasn’t been pretty. Some good has come out of this though! I’m finding that my days are going so much better now that I am back to studying the Bible and praying every morning! God has picked me back up and is repairing the wounds. I am so giving my life up to God now and I am not looking back anymore!
Another lesson I have learned is to take my career seriously. I haven’t taken is seriously the last few years. I let my ex pay for everything and now that I’m single, I’m suffering financially. It’s a challenge getting back on my feet and trying to salvage my career. It’s embarrassing to be so broke just three weeks from my 26th birthday.
I also learned that I need to take care of myself. I let myself go. I’m overweight and I feel so bad these days. I have no energy and I’m grumpy all of the time. I look back at old pictures and I miss that athletic girl who enjoyed life. I’ve learned that I need to take care of my body and my mental health or things will fall apart quickly.
Finally, I learned that I need to work hard. No more sitting around and expecting things to go well for me. I need to get off my butt and do something! I need to be productive instead of watching television and eating ice cream all day. Staying busy keeps me from overthinking and from being unhealthy.
These are some hard lessons I learned. I now know what I want and what I don’t want. I know how I’m going to move forward in 2019. I’m looking forward to the new year! I’m looking forward to getting better and having a blast! Things are looking very positive!
What are some lessons you learned in 2018?